Do you know the point where you feel like you're going to break someone's heart? You know how that feels? Well, I'm pretty much at that point. The thing is that I don't know whose heart will feel more broken: the other person's or mine.
That's not to say that I'm going to cut off communication with this person. Actually, I'm not ready to take that step -- I don't want to take that step. All that I'm saying is that I've been thinking about it.
The funny thing is that my heart feels as if it's breaking just from the thought of parting with this particular person. I just couldn't do it at this point in time. There will come a time when I will tire of his company, that is a given, but now is just not it. Why is it that I seem to know that this relationship will fail? Simply because they always do. Honestly, I'm not very sure that this one will be any different, though I am trying to stay hopeful and believe that it will be okay.
Sometimes I wonder about myself and my thoughts, as they tend to contradict how I feel. I guess the only way to summarize it all is to say that I just don't know.
Because, really, I don't.
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